the only thing missing is morning sickness..and my theory is..

Craving, n. Strong desire; longing; yearning


I have been craving for the past few days, which is beyond weird since I don't crave like a normal person would..I crave like a pregnant person..

It all started one morning when I decided to start my day with some toast and a glass of milk, an ordinary breakfast right?..I ended up wanting some for the whole day..I shrugged it off and figured that it was just because I haven't eaten that in a very long time, it actually made sense..until I got home and found that we have no more bread..I literally felt like crying..or wailing..whatever..I was just beyond pissed at the revelation..and then my mind decided that it just wants some avocados instead..so I went and devoured some..after which the 'urge' came back..only it's about milk..so, again..I went and followed the weird urges..The next morning..I found some bread on their usual spot, so I made some toast, well..not exactly some..I made like, a bunch of them, even cutting the bread in half to double the amount.

It's been nearly two weeks..I still crave for toast, but now..I think I kind of figured out why I'm having these cravings..


*Important Note* : the next few paragraphs take place in my dreams..

I tossed my keys into the open drawer in my bedroom after getting home from school..there was a loud thud and..well..everything else involves Junsu so..dear reader..please use your imagination here...

I woke up..groggy..and sated, tired, satisfied, whatever you wanna call it..there was a note taped to my forehead saying that my (imaginary!) husband, Junsu left to go do something pop star related..so I decided to visit the (imaginary!)neighbor, and good friend Heather Morris(of course she would make an appearance!), I knocked on her front door, she opened it..there was a squeal of "I missed you!" , a flurry of sweet smelling blond hair, the world turned sideways and then I pretty much found out I was bisexual..

(imaginary!) husband, Junsu called and said he would be home early..so..as much as I hated it, I told Heather I would be leaving for a bit and I would just be back when I had the time..she said okay..so I left..

I met up with Junsu at the house..and..*cue reader imagination here*

Its been a month since that (DREAM!) happened..two weeks since I had cravings..I wasn't puking yet..but I already told (imaginary!) husband, Junsu that I really really want some toast..I'm quite sure he's the baby daddy(considering Heather Morris would make this theory even more ridiculous than it already is)..he's pretty much okay with waking up in the middle of the night just to satisfy my so called cravings..he even joked that our baby would look like toast when he/she is born..Heather the(imaginary!) neighbor is kind enough to keep me company whenever Junsu is not around..so I guess that makes everything easier..

that's pretty much my (DREAM!) theory..and reality is debunking me as I type it..

my mind comes up with really weird stuff sometimes..I should get myself checked.

a series of unreachable birthday wishes..through photos..

I want Xiah Junsu for my birthday..because I LOVE HIM..and..well..HE'S REAL HOT..need I say more?..



this guy Leeteuk..I want him..because who wouldn't like that cute face?...and I didn't even upload the photo where he has his abs exposed..WOW...




Heather Morris..because as much as I hate this girl-crush I'm having..you can't deny that this girl is REALLY PRETTY...and okay..HOT too..




I want this Glee pairing to happen so badly..because I find it unfair that Kurt gets to have a boyfriend but Brittany and Santana can't end up together..so..here's to hoping they will..




Chris Colfer because I STILL refuse to believe that this boy is gay..




Jonathan Groff because he has such a SEXY SEXY voice..




and of course..Baljeet...from that cartoon..because I find his character really adorable..hahaha...

the "hahaha-is-it-fun-to-eat-your-words?" syndrome..

I've been thinking about a lot of stuff lately..like my newfound fandom for Glee which came at a time when the show is on it's break before season 2..I seem to have a knack for completely ignoring or sometimes insulting(sorry K-pop)awesome things and eventually becoming a fan when there's barely any news about it..I should start thinking of a name for this condition..it's ridiculously weird..

Its not like I haven't noticed the show before..I was aware of it because of Chris Colfer who caught my attention because he was one of those very few boys I have a serious crush on who turn out to be gay *ehem sexy voice Jonathan Groff*..(which seems to put a damper on the argument of me being straight..I AM..there's just not enough handsome straight boys to have a crush on..more on that later..)I was just too pre-occupied with other stuff to take it seriously during that time..(as always)..

It was just recently when I decided to give Glee a chance and watch a few episodes..I was in this 'watch TV shows for free' website and I was thinking of a show to type in..I tried Chuck but there were too many episodes and I don't have the patience to put up with slow buffering time..so I typed in Glee..and picked the Sectionals episode..I got through the first few minutes..and then came the scene with the party line phone call thing between Mercedes, Tina, Artie, Kurt, Brittany and Santana which had this particular exchange:

Santana: "Sex is not dating!"
Brittany: "if it was Santana and I would be dating.."

and just like that I was hooked..there was something about the way the lines were delivered that cracked me up..aside from the fact that Brittany looked mighty HOT I decided to purchase a DVD so I can marathon watch all the season one episodes and have a fresh start when season 2 rolls by..I also went and explored the internet for stuff about the show..which eventually led me to reading a bunch of fan fiction..which, in turn led me to join Team Brittana..because of *drum roll please* Brittany..or more specifically..Heather Morris..yeah..I hate having a girl crush..although I like to think that the significant lack of decent looking crush worthy boys is just nature's way of making me stay faithful to the lucky ones who made my list..their numbers are slowly dwindling though so I'm kind of hoping this trend won't last..

anyhow..I'm now starting to be a little bit careful on the stuff I say about things..and I'm starting to give everything a chance so as not to bruise my pride every time I eat my words about a certain type of fandom..

this doesn't change my feelings about the Twilight series though..I gave it a chance..heck..I even went and laboriously read all four books..but, unfortunately..IT STILL SUCKS..and..nope..I will never change my mind about that..